transparency

i'll leave everything here. it is evidence of growth.

more to come.

The long run

Military life so far seems to be quite what I expected.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Unreal

That the IB results have been released. And that I'm going to enlist tomorrow. Exciting.

On fighting

I don't. Really. I just kind of let things happen. I don't resist. Which sucks. It's been going on and on and on. I'm not tough enough, strong enough, fast enough, skilled enough. I don't go the distance. I don't improve. Not enough. And so I lose. Submit. Give up. Stay mediocre. Stay in crap but familiar surroundings.

I am my own worst enemy. I can't do this alone but even then it is always a choice I make.

Scared of hard work.

So ironically (or appropriately), I just picked up a combat sport. After failing (it really depends on who you ask) in this other awesome sport.

Soon.

Let's see.


The only thing keeping me going is that I'm still a work in progress. But there are days it seems like the 'other' me is tearing everything apart.

Thank you BT hahaha

This is nice.